I need a cat and glasses-IT'S OVER!

Graduate School is over.

Wow. It feels strange. When I started this program just over a year ago I felt like I would never be able to say that. And looking back now I can't believe how fast the time has gone, especially, mercifully this last semester.

My best friend L asked me if I was excited--when I called her Saturday afternoon to say that I had submitted my last paper--excitement isn't the word I would use. Glad that it's over--certainly, but there are so many things to think about. I feel tired more than anything. It is amazing that I could do all nighters with no sleep a few times a week to get all my papers and projects done, but now that everything is turned in I can't believe I ever was able to do that. All I want to do is have a serious Rip Van Winkle and catch up and then, maybe after all the sleep the excitement will settle in.

Maybe there has been no time for excitement. I feel like too much life has happened this semester. Death, Graduation, Finding a new job, possibly moving again. Oh, argh, why can't I just find a nice little hole...and marry a Hobbit...and...wha? I tried to shluff off the stress and celebrate Saturday night by going to Boogie Fever and hanging out with bro Andy and friends: Married K & Joe Black, Chris, Miss Cellaneous, Megan, Stac, A.E., George, Tom, Adele, Christina, Dave, and Nathan! Am I forgetting anyone!? All friends who were brave enough to chance the weather--thanks! Miss Cellaneous gets the prize for farthest traveled--she came all the way from Davison! Miss Cellaneous and I met last fall when we started the program and she has been a great friend through the process--thanks Miss Cellaneous! Woot Woot!

Being the nerdy little Librarian--oh my God, I am not a library science student anymore. I AM A FREAKING LIBRARIAN!! I feel like Pinocchio--"I'm a real boy!" Whoa, I need to get a cat and a pair of glasses stat, good thing my hair is already in a bun today--I decided to look up symptoms of "Stress "today because I want to make sure that I am not infact losing my mind and that there is a reason for how I have felt lately. Then after reading some of the symptoms (found here) and having a good laugh I decided that I was going to add a new paragraph to my resume to highlight all of the new abilities that I have recently acquired:



Additional Skills:

  • Memory problems
  • Indecisiveness
  • Inability to concentrate
  • Trouble thinking clearly
  • Poor judgment
  • Seeing only the negative
  • Anxious or racing thoughts
  • Constant worrying
  • Loss of objectivity
  • Fearful anticipation
  • Moodiness
  • Restlessness
  • Short temper
  • Irritability
  • Impatience
  • Inability to relax
  • Sense of loneliness and isolation
  • General unhappiness
  • Headaches or backaches
  • Muscle tension and stiffness
  • Chest pain, rapid heartbeat
  • Weight gain
  • Skin breakouts (hives, eczema)
  • Eating more or less
  • Sleeping too little
  • Isolating yourself from others
  • (this one's my favorite) Using alcohol, cigarettes, or drugs to relax
  • Nervous habits (e.g. nail biting)
  • Teeth grinding
  • Picking fights with others

Yes, I always imagined myself this proud Graduate, beaming with an air of intelligence, and now, apparently I am a creepy, fight picking, isolated, nubbed down nail having, weirdo, sitting along scratching her eczemated skin, while rocking back and forth remembering what I was going to do today, all while grinding my teeth into a cigarette and craddling a bottle of Jack Daniels. Ah, school really brings out the shining star in all of us. :)

Jesus, I have turned into Bob Wiley.

So today, I wanted to read something peaceful, so I hunted up Rita Dove poetry to shake me out of my funk and I found the perfect poem.

"The Snow King” by Rita Dove

In a far far land where men are men
and women are sun and sky
The Snow King paces. And light throws
a gold patina on the white spaces
where sparrows lie frozen in hallways.

And he weeps for the sparrows, their clumped feathers:
Where is the summer that lasts forever,
with night as soft as antelope eyes?
The Snow King roams the lime-filled spaces
his cracked heart a slow fire, a garnet.

Alright, I have jabbered on enough. This Librarian has things to do. My circle time reading group of storm troopers will be here any minute!

Comments

congrats on finishing. are you looking for a YA job? if so, you might want to post a couple of podcasts on odeo and a video on youtube and get your facebook page looking good and add some pix to flickr. it may not help at the interviews, but these things are free and they never hurt. do you do storytime? do you have at least 2 books prepared to read? can you whip up a craft on demand? I'm just trying to give you stuff to think about. Knowing buzzwords is good, but what can you do? is what gets the job. can you teach something? word processing for writing papers or resumes.. can you teach powerpoint? again, stuff interviewers like to hear. (just don't mention that you like the.effing.librarian...not sure how far my rep has spread.) good luck.
Thanks Effing.

No, after this year, I would love to go into Adult Ref., though I would take Ya if I had too. Yes, yes--good tips! I can do those things and that is an interesting point, I didn't even think of bringing some of that up.

Though I need to get the damn interviews first. ;)

I am going to use your name and throw it around, I know that you are popular out in the wide library world! :)
Kerry said…
Just wait until you have the actual diploma in hand. I was so bizarrely happy--and I hated library school.

Excellent list of "new skills." So on the money.

Did you see Well Dressed Librarian's Job Hunting Tips?
Not yet Kerry, I will have to check them out!

Thanks!

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